Why ordinary people need to understand power

Eric Liu: Why ordinary people need to understand power.  Thats the title of the video above.  I watched it all. Having power is something that my psychologist said I didn't have when I told him about the songs I have words in.  He said I need power. I need power to get my phone call out into the public.
There perhaps needs to be a demand for it, my phone call.  I don't know how to create a demand.  I didn't give myself enough power at the beginning and was treated horribly after that.  I guess that I have to keep telling my story on this website and on forums.  The thing is all my threads die a very horrible death.  Nobody listens.  If I used power better I would've been able to get financial support from my initial phone call.  But I kinda blew that off.

I reckon if I'd thought about it I could've got 4 billion dollars on the spot.  The thing is I wasn't like I am today.  I was still suffering hard core and with this I think I would've made poorer decisions.  It's possible that waiting has been safer.  But not this long.  Not as long as it's been.  I'd be in much better condition if I was rich possibly from food to gym equipment to housing to entertainment.  The bible says to beware the deceit of wealth.  It's hard to imagine life being rich.  How can rich be bad?  I possibly might use some drugs or something?  This could be a very real trap.  Money is kind of power.  The bible says you either love money or God and that you can't serve two masters.

Between money and God, God would be the better master.  It would be far better to be in Love with God than to be in Love with money.  But what am I?  I can't ask myself this question.  I chase money very hard.  I long and want money to be rich.  I just want to be comfortable.  I don't really know God but I know money. I can't ask myself this question because I don't know the answer.  It's like God are you even real.

I have a lot of questions with very little power to answer them and make endings and solutions.  We are working in the dark.  Some still shine brighter than others even in this dark.  Jesus said "I am the light of the world.  Whoever follows me will never walk in darkness, but will have the light of life ".

I don't know how you or I can follow Jesus.  Perhaps he is just a myth and Legend.  I grew up with Jesus.  I went to a thing called Boys Brigade, it was a Christian organisation for boys.  That's possibly where I learned most of my scripture.  I never had a bible at home.  But today it's very hard to see the light of life and I possibly walk in darkness.  It's very hard to believe in Jesus in todays world as a grown up after examining the bible again.  I must say I do like some of the teachings. Many of the teachings.

I have found myself practising stuff from the bible as I grew.  I liked it and used to rely on it, the bible.  I have truly suffered now.  If you can share in Christs suffering I have done that, I have truly suffered.  Now I hope to share in his, Christs glory.  I guess my end will be death like everyone else.  Medically i'm not in the best condition.  I'm poor medically as well as financially.  But I hope I got 30 years left.  I should see some marvellous things in the next 30 years.  Technology will be amazing.  They are working hard everyday.

We humans are fragile aren't we.  Here one minute gone the next.  I hope I have deep roots and foundations to see me through situations that may come about.  This has kinda been the type of power that I use in this post.  I rely on the bible stories a lot for my power.  But they could be quite false.  I have no way to prove or disprove them.  It's what I love though.  I will keep searching scriptures for answers to everyday problems where solutions are needed.  I like referring to scripture.  But it could be just nonsense.  Why do I use it when there is not end to it.  It goes on and on.  I hope to oneday solve the age old question "Is there a GOD".  Will I ever answer this question.  I guess to solve it is to meet him.

I still find the bible a good read.  I also like reading commentary and blogs about scripture and listening to sermons.  I guess this post is long enough.  I need more power to solve things is this the answer?  Where will this power come from?

911 Phone call on YOUTUBE is a small the goal.  Death is the final enemy.  Fight death.  Defeat Death.

Win.